Rasa hati

Hari ini aku seakan mendapat semangat baru. Malam ini Hubby balik setelah 2 bulan tidak balik sini, hanya aku yang ke KL kerana cuti, meeting etc.

Terasa berdebar pun ada kerana risau kan dia mungkin penat. Semalam dia telah sms memberitahu kepala dia sakit, sampai ke pagi ini pun sms nya masih serupa. Aku selalu risau kan dia. Risau dia penat, takde mood, tak enjoy.. macam2 lah. Itu kerana kalau berlaku bende2 tersebut nanti terjejaslah keseronokan pertemuan kami.

Aku telah berkira2 untuk masak ape untuk weekend ini. Untuk dia sebenarnya. Aku telah berkemas2 rumah, membeli pewangi ruang tamu yang baru untuk membuatkan terbangkitnya mood yang nyaman ketika dia disini. Aku telah berkira2 untuk mengurut badannya dengan minyak aromaterapi supaya hilang segala tekanan kerja yang dia hadapi seminggu ini. Aku memikir apa lagi aktiviti bersama yang boleh kami lakukan supaya tercipta lagi kenangan indah dengan dia.

Balik nanti aku akan menyudahkan saki baki kerja rumah yang belum siap. Kemudian bolehlah aku menunggu kepulangan dia malam nanti dengan hati lapang, dengan rindu dendam. Aku tak jamin malam ini ada pertarungan akan berlaku dikamar. Aku rasa dia akan cakap dia letih juga untuk kesekian kalinya. Apa pun aku masih berharap. Moga malam ini, tenggelam aku dalam dakapan dan kucupan dia, tidur ku pun lena...

Cold in here

It's been a while since i last wrote. Been buzy (nothing new about it la kan). Hubby came and went back, me too went to KL and came back to work. The travelling starting to take the toll on us. Not about the money spent, but more on the time taken to reach the destinations. Ada sekali tu aku rasa nak terbang aje supaya cepat sampai. If only i have the magical power..pejam celik mata ..ting! sampai KL.

4 months has gone. Married life is now starting to show its true colors. Yea, there is no rainbows everyday. Rainbows appear after the rain. Its seems to be raining all the time. And i'm getting cold. Do u understand? Wht i meant is, we have disagreement all the time. His words driving me crazy. I've never a fighter. But these 4 months, i think i've been fighting with him more than i had in all of my life i've been living. I realize my heart has turn cold too .. :(

New life

I'm back to blogger again. After spending time with Wordpress last year, i found it less amusing. Starting a new life, i prefer blogging at my old playground.

Working today is kinda Monday blues feeling for me. Lack of sleep last nite, hubby was around.. I was awoken many times to his kisses, caresses and soft murmurs of sweet nothings. We managed to woke up early this morning. I sent him to the bus station, we kissed goodbye, and before tears welled up in my eyes, i drove to the office.

Its been a month and 8 days i've been married to M. Still new and sweet. We are still receiving overdue presents for our weddings. Alhamdulillah, things are good and smooth. The only hiccup is that we dont live together. Me , here and he is in KL. Sometimes i'll go back to KL or like last weekend he came here . I dont know how long we gonna be like this.. but i hope we will manage, and ada rezeki so that we can be together under one roof.

I met a friend just now in the cafe who wishes me luck in my marriage. He asked whether we are staying apart and i said yes, its like the long distance educational programme universities are offering.

He jokingly said, "yea u can learn and study online or virtually, but remember..bukan semua 'bende' boleh buat secara online".

I just laughed at his jokes knowing what he is referring to.

Well, married life brings with it a new world, some endings to mysteries, many wonders and a whole lot more. As for now, i'm still rejoicing it and at the same time praying hard for this journey to be a wonderful experience for us both.